Dear my better self!

Hi, how's it going? are you still here as a gardener?... I hope you are.
This letter was written in the morning of a 25-year-old soul. When I had a thoughtful sip of tea and mindlessly realized that I had just undergone a quarter of life, and wanted to pen a couple of words for you.

Time is invisible and unstoppable but it can be associated with tangible images like sand passing the hourglass or a pointer traveling the clock. Perhaps the time is a single-direction flow, then we are going oppositely. For some, time passed quickly yet for others, an hour seems like an eternity. Sometimes I'm at a standstill, sometimes I go ahead, sometimes I look back then long for turning back the hands of time regretfully. So would it be necessary to recall the past if we were not going that way anymore?. Yes, I think so, even though whenever It happens, I nearly die of regret. Well, but what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger, right?. Just kidding, I don't know. I'm just pleased about my acknowledgment which is a valuable experience. All in all, that's what I genuinely desired to do at the time. I had no clue what was going on, It can either guide me to promised prospect or down to the rabbit hole. The brutal fact is that the past define who I am. If I deny the past, then obviously I'm denying my narrative identity. Subsequently, drowned in regretful is what would come about. I'd rather take the past as my ally, in psychology, It has the ability called "mental time travel" for improving decision making. Traveling the past to build your resilience and experience, from that launcher, envision all the potential futures for wise decision. That is the foremost reason why jobs nowaday would prefer experience than anything. So safe travel.

Hmm and what else?. Let's talk a bit about optimism. An optimistic attitude is one of the essential pillars of personal growth. It comes along with evasion, and mistaken application can lead to harm than good effects. I have met two typical kinda people that possess optimism in 2 different ways. The first one is well aware of positive thinking. Their mental health is kept in shape with modest optimistic energy. They are able to identify any problem in hand and solve it or cease it prudently. By contrast, wrapping yourself in the cover of overly optimistic thoughts may reduce the ability to perceive the seriousness of the problem. It's likely prone to fall further into severe depression when things don't go well. Consciously or not, people are more resistant - or even avoiding to hearing anything negative yet truthful which spoils their pleasure. In his Harvard commencement address, Mark Zuckerberg said "If I had to support my family growing up instead of having time to code, if I didn't know I'd be fine if Facebook didn't work out, I wouldn't be standing here today.". He thought very carefully about his probable failure, and luckily that he had freedom to fail. He didn't let promised prospect blind his mind. I'm not here to criticize the power of positive thinking or underpin dwelling on the negative. Sometimes, staying positive might end up in self-doubt and self-regret. It's more of a sharing than a piece of advice.

Oh, shieet, gotta go. I'm gonna be late for work. After all, have fun.


Best Regards,
Trung Hua
25-year-old gardener